“She values you.
She thinks for you.
She worries for you.
She puts you on her heart.
She takes you upon as a burden.
And she carries it without grudge.
When things happen to you,things that she knows would affect you,she worries.
You may not know,but she’s just worrying how’d you pick yourself up.
She asks herself what she can do to help.
She asks you how are you.
She asks you to share.
She gets stressed at times when she thinks for all your shit.
And all you do is,make her guess more,close yourself,refuse to move on,vent your frustration infront of her.
I think its enough.
Of her trying to help you deal with your same old problem.
You just refuse to move on.
JUst keep making it so difficult.
You’re just selfish.
So bloody selfish.
If you can’t even be strong and move on for the people who care and love you,what the hell are you living for then?All you want to do is live in your bloody self pity state.
And let the people around you know how pathetic it is to be in the pits.
All you want is for people to know that “I AM ANGRY.” ,”I AM DISAPPOINTED”.
Its all about “ME MYSELF AND I NOT HAPPY AND THE WHOLE WORLD MUST KNOW IT.”
And Jun is always there for you,so you dump all the shit on her.
And if you ever notice,she’s still there for you.
Make it all so difficult.
When things are jsut simple.
She doesn’t complain.
She doesn’t entertain the thought of giving up.
Because you matter to her.
And yet,you make her feel at times that she doesn’t matter.
You make her feel she makes no difference.
OF COURSE THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE.
BECAUSE YOU BLOODY DON’T WANT TO MOVE ON.
When people don’t move on,and stay there,you know what happens?
They gradually move backwards.
And so,you move backwards.
Go on and move backwards.
I tell you,Jun will still be there for you.
Will you jsut stop it.
Can’t you jsut move on?
Your problem is nothing compared to the type of things other people face.
You waste your time,jun’s time,other ppl time when you refuse to move on.
Sorry that I use this harsh tone.
But its time to be harsh if you refuse to move when people support you gently.
You just need this bloody kick in the face.
Please move on.
Again I plead.
Since you refuse to move on,at least appreciate,that there is a girl,at your side,still hopin and making sure you bloody move on.
You have her relentless support.
All those just vomitted out.
Who is it to?
I don’t really know,but if you feel guilty after reading it.
I guess its for you.
Anyway,just wanna say, to you people,especially esther xinyi,louis,evie,sam and even ryan. (eh TRICIA ALSO)
You all so bloody matter to her can.
Even when she’s out with her boyfriend,she’d stare into space and think about your troubles.
Its like,she even has you on her mind when she’s with her boyfriend can.
You people matter so much to her.
And she loves you all.
And yea,till this very moment,you people are still in her heart.
Treasure her cause she treasures you people so much.“
something i quoted out from jun’s boyfriend’s blog.
I’M JEALOUS CAN LOL.